We are slowly moving stuff into our new apartment and I am really excited about the fact of moving into town. There will be more things for me to do and more places to go.

I don�t think Benny understands the enormity of this situation and refuses to go to counseling when I asked him to. I�m getting to the point where I don�t care if he does or not. I�m feeling fairly broken right now and am grateful for the couple of very good friends I have. They are keeping me focused on the fact that my situation isn�t normal and that Benny needs help. I just need to keep reminding myself that.

The band isn�t playing out this weekend. It will be nice to have a mini vacation but I could really use some screaming into a microphone to relieve some of this tension I�ve been feeling. It will just have to wait until next week.

So�here is a shitty update, just so that everyone knows I�m still alive.