The Final Bow
It’s 3:19a.m. right now. I’m sitting in front of my computer eating a frozen entree that I had stuffed in my freezer. Fettuccine Alfredo with chicken and broccoli. It’s fairly disgusting but it’s filling the hole.
My last show with Co5 was…incredible. I think it may have been one of our better shows. I know that it will always be, in my mind, one of the most heart-felt performances of my “career”. I wanted the boys to know how much I appreciate them, love them and how eternally grateful I am to have had them in my life. I think I held up pretty well until the very last set. It started to sink in that this was going to be the very last time that I would be doing these particular songs with them. It was going to be the last time that I’d be flipping off Smurf on stage. The last time I would be thrashing with BJ. The last time that we all would chant, “One, Two, Three, let’s get down with the wicked!” before a song. I told Smurf, “This is going to be the last time we are going to sing this song (Knock’n on Heaven’s Door) together.”
Before the last song of the night, I made a little “speech”, if you will. I don’t quite remember what I said. Something about all of the things I had learned and experienced with them. How much they really mean to me. I tried to control the tears, but I couldn’t stop my eyes from leaking.
It was so sweet to see BJ tear up. I then ended the night with “What’s Up?” by the Four Non Blondes. I tried to keep my composure, but that didn’t happen and I was barely able to finish the song. “25 years, and my life is still, trying to get up that great big hill of hope, or a destination.” How poignant. That’s when Bill came from behind his drum set and gave me a hug. Then the rest of the guys joined in. Walking away from them today, was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I gave tons of hugs and received tons of hugs in return. Both from the band and from the audience. I made them promise that we get together on a regular basis. They are and always will be my family.
They seem to be really excited about my new band and can’t wait for our debut. Of course that won’t be for some time.
Circle of Fifths is one of the most wonderful, caring, brilliant, wonderful group people I have ever had the privilege to know.
Here ends the three of the best years of my life.
And with that, dear readers I end my time here as Co5girl. Many kisses to all of those who have always supported me.
To new beginnings and to wonderful memories.