Ok, Mom�sure! I�ll support that! Just as long as there are leftovers.

Jan gathered a bunch of her son�s old toys and lent them to me so that my nephew can stay occupied.

John has been helping me get my internet stuff fixed (Damn DSL!) and has been a huge help as far as putting stuff together for me. You know carpentry stuff. I�d do it myself but there hasn�t really been enough hours in the day or enough energy in my body.

My coworkers have been very supportive as well. They know how emotionally distraught I have been and try to pick up on my slacking work.

I just wish all of this stuff could be over with so that I can try to heal myself. There really isn�t time.

I had started going to counseling and that has been helping a lot, but one hour a week seems so miniscule sometimes.

The band seems a little pissed at me. Benny was our sound company and now that he�s gone we are having trouble keeping some of our show dates. So there goes money that could be going to a payment of some sort.

Not to mention that the car I was left with is on it�s last limb.

I had asked Benny to help me get it fixed for cheap through Marv�s, but I don�t think I�m going to go that route. A dude across the street from my ghetto apartment is a mechanic and said he would fix it for $150! Yeah buddy!!!! I�ll take that.

It sux that I�m stuck with that car. Basically the payments are for all of the bad debt that we had to take care of in order to fix Benny�s credit history. So basically I�m stuck paying off his debts if I want to get to work.

Collateral for a loan�that�s what I�m driving.

Fantastic!!!

I�m thinking I�m going to trade it in for a better car to finish paying off that debt. Then I�ll have to have someone cosign for me. I think a local dealership has a minimum trading policy�I�ll have to check it out.

Anyway, the life of The Chic continues and although it�s looking a bit scummy, I have so many wonderful people in my life to make it better.