Oh well, I guess it�s part of life. I could probably make it if I didn�t have to make a car payment, but I need to get to work and the buss doesn�t run through here, at least not when I need it to. If I were to take the bus I would have to work less hours in order to catch the necessary busses.

Not to mention that the car I have now is in bad condition. I wonder if Benny wants it? I would totally give it to him, just so that I wouldn�t have to pay the payments anymore. I don�t know if he would go for that though. My dad says it doesn�t hurt to ask. So I guess that will be happening sometime soon. My mom offered to help me with a car and then I could pay her back when I�m back on my feet. I couldn�t possibly accept that, but at this moment I�m feeling desperate. Plus my family doesn�t think it�s right that I should be paying off Benny�s debts, but the way I see it; you marry the man, you marry the bills. Am I right on that?

Oh well.

I hate what�s happening; I miss the good things about Benny, but I realize that sometimes the bad things outweigh the good. I just need to keep repeating that to myself.